170 more days to go

I am 15 weeks and 5 days pregnant now, and i feel like its going by way to fast. I really want this time to go slow, and im not sure if its because we have nothing for baby or if its because i really want to enjoy this pregnancy. Nathan and I where very smart to get rid of everything while living in Germany, but little did we know that getting rid of it all then find out we where pregnant was going to be what was to happen next to us. Im looking forward to shopping for this baby, but at the same time i get so pissed when i think about everything i have to buy, knowing i just gave it all away. So the other day at Walmart we got our first baby item... A pack of onesies... yay onesies! I really had forgot about how much money you needed to have a baby. Its hard enough when you have a 3 and a 2 year old who grow out of clothes like weeds, and every time you turn around you have to updated their closets! Maybe i will feel better in June when we find out for sure the sex of the baby, then i might be more in the mood to spend lots of money, but for now im putting it all on hold.

Every one dies famous in a small town

Today i woke today with out ever thinking that someone who i knew for many years now would be gone.

I got a text message from a friend who let me know the sad news of an amazing person who was killed in a car crash Haley Harp, i felt like a million bricks where thrown down. people are in car crashes all the time and live, is what i was telling myself.

I guess it hurts me so bad because she is so young, only 21 years old. Not only was she just 21 years old but she was a mother!

I was 4 years old when my dad died and it hurt's every day knowing i don't know him at all and that i never got a chance to share anything father daughter with him, or that fact that he is not here today to see how happy my life is. That is why i think it hurts me so bad, because now Ciara is going to live her life with out her mother now. Every little girl needs her Mother. I know god has a time for all of us to go, and its not always when we are ready or want to leave but he needs us as his angles more then he needs us here on earth.

I will never forget the joy you brought into a room Haley, or the beautiful smile you always had on your face! I will keep your family in my prayers. Im sorry for their loss, but i know god needs you more then any of us do down here.

R.I.P Haley Harp

If i die young by The Band Perry - Haley this is my song to you R.I.P

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother

She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and

Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no

Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom

I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger

I’ve never known the lovin' of a man

But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever

Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I’m a goner

And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’

Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

oh oh

The ballad of a dove

Go with peace and love

Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket

Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well

I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

Happy Mothers day! Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day!

We have had an amazing weekend hanging out as a family and getting out in the out doors! Yesterday we took the boys to where Nate goes out ridding on his dirt bike and enjoyed hiking up the mountain! Only because Roy said he was going to find the dinosaurs. He never found his dinosaurs, but he did loss a shoe and then walked over a cactus. Daddy and myself did not know he walked over a cactus, or more then 1 until we went to put his shoe back on his foot. Roy is a trooper and never once cried. not even when we where taking cactus needles out of his foot. Roy is a tough boy! :)

I am very thankful for my little boys and my wonderful husband. I love ever min of my crazy wild days with the boys. I thank the lord for all the great blessings he has giving my in the last 4 amazing years with Nathan!

So as i share Mothers Day with my family i hope you are enjoying your Mothers day as well!

I love you Roy and Wes to the moon and back!

This is Miss. Penny we found her like this yesterday... she had a busy day playing with the boys!

On Saturday May 1st i went to a Gary Allan and Jack Ingram Concert! it was a blast and it was nice getting out of the house!

Gary was amazing

Danielle, myself, and Kendra waiting after the concert to go meet Jack Ingram!

Jack Ingram and I.

Our back stage passes...

Other then the concert I had a pretty good weekend. Sunday Nathan and I cleaned the house, got the garage all done, and worked a little on the yard. It's always nice putting the kids to bed early on a sunday night and enjoying a movie in a super clean house! also a amazing way to start off the week!